dull depression

I might be experiencing some of the symptoms of TMJ.  My dentist thinks that I grind my teeth when I sleep.  I sometimes have headaches.  I wake up in the middle of the night for no apparent reason. . .  The dentist suggested a $400 mouthguard.  I’m just not sure if I would actually wear it.  I guess it comes down to if I want to feel better, I will.

Did you ever notice that certain excuses for irrational actions just don’t sound so good as soon as you start telling them to someone?

How have I gotten so impatient that I can’t even wait for a song to finish anymore?

With a great deal of the things I do, they’re just to take up the time.  I feel like I’m just passing time until there's no time left.  If only I could do something productive to take up my time.

The zombie’s dull tragedy -
I wrote this as a dull tragedy.  How do you expect me to change the pace and the mood in the middle of the story?

60 years from now, will this be all that’s left?

This make me a better person?  HA! I only sink deeper into myself.

About the only thing I know to help myself is that I myself must change.

Part of the problem with my depression, if that’s what it is, is that it is so deeply ingrained.  I have had this behavior for so long I don’t remember anything else.  Just periods where it was lessened or went away for awhile, but it always seems to come back.  And those may have only been the result of medication.  When it comes down to it, is the medication more than a mood elevator?  Will it give me self-confidence?  Not likely.  Would said mood elevators leave me feeling happy with where I am in life?

Depression. Blah, blah blah. No self-confidence. Blah, blah, blah. Stop complaining and do something about it already!  And stop repeating yourself!

Note: Many questions asked in my posts are not really rhetorical.  Feel free to try at an answer.