Tuesday, January 31, 2006

avoiding zombie self

Again more writing from before computer was working:

I also wrote a huge list of all these things that I am tired of, like not living life, followed by:
So how do I get myself to really change all these things? Apparently, I'm the one that has to change, but I don't even know if people can change that much! "If I am not for myself, who will be for me?" I wish I could fix all those things I'm tired of. But I feel like I just don't have the strength.

So after my computer is working again, will I go back to being a zombie? (That is if I'm not one right now.) Depends on how long until I install Quake. . .

I think I'm a horrible storyteller - What makes me think that I could possibly be a writer?

I can force myself not to do things - I'm good at that. There's the original zombie box and now the new interactive model.

A pleasure never known; a curse self imposed. I only doom myself. I try only to run from the stereotypes.

This might not make me a better writer, but I hope it will make me a better person.

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