Top 10 reasons you know you need a new cell phone

10) Your cell phone doesn't have a qwerty keypad

9) You can't connect your cell phone to your computer

8) Your cell phone doesn't have a camera (what is it with cameras and cell phones?)

7) You can't play music on your cell phone

6) You can't download any applications for your cell phone

5) You can't check your email on your cell phone

4) You can''t surf the web on your cell phone

3) You have to take out the battery every 15 minutes to use your cell phone

2) Your mother's cell phone is newer than yours

1) Your mother tells you that you need a new cell phone

More Introspection

A little background for those of you that don't know: here

I'm trying to tear a hole in the wall of how I felt as a child, even if I'm blinded by what I see.

Of what little I see is possibly anger hatred directed at whom?

Situation, G-d, the disease, maybe even my brother I don't know.

So in the end I am irrevocably damaged in ways I can't really imagine. I know others have suffered just as much when they were children (if not more so), but I think they have an inner strength I do not have.

I probably would've had my own significant issues even if my father had no problems. I think I'd still have trouble believing in myself.

No one will believe in myself for me... Where does that lack of self-confidence come from? I don't believe in anything for myself.

What about the pervasive pessimism? That's been with me since before I can remember. Where does it come from? How do I extricate something that has been there so long?

The logic inside is only a wall so no one can see what I'm really feeling – can't even see it for myself.

Would I still have become a programmer if my father didn't have the disease? (he was a programmer himself)

For the child I never was

For all that I can never have

I have to let myself in before I let you in. That's why I'm so quiet.