The solution is in the land itself. Your inability to peacefully coexist will only rot you. It will not keep you pure.

I strive to recapture what I have lost. I have lost the rhythmic thought. The genius that wasn't. How the hell does he do that? Everyone's afraid to see. And we all want to change (ourselves).

Damn worthless stream of consciousness. Can't even put anything into a coherent piece.

There are things I cannot have. I actively work against myself to prevent myself from having them. I'm still stuck in a routine. Did getting a job and a place of my own lead me to rest on my laurels? From where do I pull my motivation?
I feel like I use up all my motivation at work. This stagnation bothers me most of all.

50% of bloggers find blogging therapeutic. Guess I'm not that original after all. In other studies, the study that said reading email lowers your IQ turned out to be yet another giant error by the media. Never trust any studies unless you've read the studies for yourself. As far as the blogging is therapeutic, it's not surprising at all so I didn't bother delving into the statistics they used to obtain such a figure. There is a study that proves most people don't understand scientific studies correctly. Maybe journalists should consider showing the article to the originating scientist before sensationalizing a complicated study.

I just did a study that proves that reading my blog on a regular basis will increase your IQ 10 points. Yes, I based the IQ test on how well you read the blog, and yes I only used a grand total of three subjects, but what reporter cares about those details. I mean, they're probably at the end of my study anyhow so they're obviously not important. No, I'm not bashing mainstream media. Just mainstream media who don't understand what the study they read in some scientific journal actually means.