I think I’m beginning to see again.
What does that mean? Part of it means I can see my future. (never pretty)
Other times it means I see a particular course humanity will take. I see a truth about the world. All too often something I’d rather remain blind to. I see wisdom and its uselessness. We’d all prefer it to mean only that I see hope.
I think I’ve become incredibly boring if I wasn’t already.
Ice floes and I’m running out of time. Maybe I’m too much in touch with my own mortality and fading youth for my age. I’m supposed to be more obsessed with actually living my life more than anything else. By the time that happens, I fear it will be too late.
I’ve been way too convinced that I’m doomed. I supposed medication could change that but wouldn’t really help me all that much. Not on the self-confidence issue anyway.
Why didn’t I post? I get lazy or afraid of not posting enough, of something too private, of an incomplete post…
Hmm. . . How well do you really know yourself?
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How well do I know myself?
I wonder sometimes. Though more often than not I bypass that question for one that seems a tad more... not-deep. Not necessarily shallow, though. I ask: How much of myself has come about through the influences of other people? More abstractly, I suppose I'm asking: What part of me is the essential self and what part is what I've become in response to outside stimuli? Was there even an essential -- an absolute -- being to begin with?
There I go again. When in doubt, think abstract. Asking questions is hardly a way to answer them.
love you to death bro but you gotta make the effort to go out doesnt matter so much where just as long as you go
Shaggy here. One maybe can see a future, but it still really up to the one and ones around him, to make that happen, or not happen. Sometimes fate doesn’t appear magically.
I think I know myself well. I know my issues and try to adapt to them. I know to be happy about what I am and am comfortable being who am..... not 100% at work because if I acted even a little like I did on my guild page, team speak, I'd be in trouble much too often; but that’s a good example of knowing yourself, being happy with it, but trying to adapt it slightly to fit my needs.
Hey Reuben. My rss syndicator just got around to posting all of your blog entries for the past 7 months. Doh! Sorry I've been out of touch. (I blame technology?)
For what it's worth, I think you're brilliant and interesting, and I love reading your thoughts about the world.
Don't worry about what you're supposed to be, and just be. Try to be comfortable in who you are and be friends with all parts of yourself, even those that you aren't as fond of.
Being comfortable with one's self is a difficult task. For example, sometimes I'll notice myself reacting to something in an unseemly way, and I'll internally chide myself for awhile about it. It's hard to cut myself a break sometimes. :). But when I let things go and relax, I find that the next time a situation comes up I behave less unseemly.
It's good to remember that you're human, and a work in progress. :)
This is Neil:
I was just thinking about that last night. We can't completely understand anything we haven't ourselves experienced. But I can tell you that we think similarly.
We start out with predispositions, like holes in a road. The only way we learn about ourselves is when our vehicle of experience drives over the road. so go out, it doesn't matter where...
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