typical boring day

Well, I'm addicted to another incarnation of Team Fortress. The main difference with this one is the game itself is free as well as the mod: Enemy Territory.

You'll only see this type of log once, so no complaining, Ross. Besides I'm illustrating some kind of point with it.
Typical work day:
get up at 6:14 AM
get ready to leave shower, dress, etc. (don't eat breakfast)
leave around 7:18 AM
Take the bus to work after the first one goes by being completely full
Get to center city at 7:38 AM
Go to Dunkin Donuts and get "unhealthy breakfast" consisting of one of three things
Get to work at 7:45 AM
Eat breakfast and read slashdot until 8:00 AM when I sign in
Now for the incriminating evidence:
At which point I try to solve random problems we're having with the network by searching the internet. Of course, what I find is no help at all but it's slightly more productive than sitting around reading comics or playing solitaire. More often than not, I'll be sent on random tech support issues which can be anything. These usually take only a few minutes to solve. Failing that, we end up giving them a different computer.
All that's about to change as they gave me something important to do at work having to do with condos.
I sign out for lunch at 1:30 and go to the local pizza place where I order one of three things
I take my lunch back to my narrow cubicle and eat it there while reading science fiction
The rest of my workday goes by the same as it was before lunch.
At 4:00 PM I sign out and take the bus back home.
Upon arriving home, I check my email (are you incredibly bored yet?) and play games, only stopping to eat a frozen dinner.
At 11:00 PM or so, I go to sleep.

The point is that my life is incredibly boring. I spend very little time doing anything productive or interesting.
Why? Too much or wasted effort? Inferiority issues? Who knows?

I know how to become an optimist. I also know it requires more effort than I'm willing to provide. That limit on providing effort keeps me standing still.

sick? and bored

I took a sick day today. The thing with the sick days is that today will probably end up being unexcused because I have to pay x number of dollars for a doctor appointment to get a note. I took it because I had a sore throat and my stomach was bothering me. It turned out that the sore throat got a little better and I had some gas. In the past, I would go to work feeling sick, and then take a sick day the next day.

On days off, I get really bored. I would like to do something productive, but I'm not really sure what specifically to do. I could write, but I need something to write about. Something besides cleaning my room, doing a load of laundry, playing computer games, or even reading (a novel).

inspiration and motivation

Ross asks:
OK, so what creates inspiration/motivation? Or is it innate, you either have it or you don't?

I think in some it inspiration might be a gift, but for the most part it is in one's environment. Often, pain or mental anguish brings inspiration. Raw emotion leads to inspiration. That's why things that subdue emotion have a negative effect on inspiration.

Motivation to succeed is more a part of a person's personality, and therefore, can be considered innate. Whether a person is driven is built into his personality. I think my problem lies here more, in that I'm not driven. Try comparing yourself to the people on that TV show "Driven" and you'll see what I mean. I suppose environment could influence motivation to succeed somewhat. . . This does ask another question: Who/what causes us to believe in ourselves? Perhaps the answer lies with our parents. How they push us to succeed and how they drive themselves.

I had this other idea - kind of like Common Sense from Thomas Paine. An anonymous political newspaper (electronic?). We will fight only with the disobedience our country was founding upon. Has entire pages devoted to editorial cartoons..

As usual, these ideas won't be any more than ideas. I'm only driven toward mediocrity.

We will all be forgotten in five generations anyhow.

I guess it could be more than just an idea if any of you were actually interested in any of these silly ideas.

IThey use the computer games to prevent me from actually accomplishing anything.

So many fruitless ideas and dreams because I pursue nothing. What would it take for me to pursue something? That and inspiration.

Is there nothing more to me other than this mundane existence?