Monday, March 21, 2005

Listening to Rolling Stones - Paint It Black

I have cursed myself. A long time ago I suppose I cursed myself to prevent myself from ever enjoying life. This is why I can't dance or fall in love, or live life (to its fullest). Others take up self mutilation and suicide. I just cursed myself.

My shyness only harms me now.

Six billion - most of them are suffering.

In every form of government, they insisted, there would be an Inner Party. As if we all just want to be O'Brien.

Why did I stop writing? Maybe my thoughts were not coherent enough. I couldn't stay still with the idea at hand

Dream. I have seen the problem. The solutions for humanity's problems are ours to create not to be given. The reason a higher being doesn't manifest himself regularly is threefold. One: for the independence of the species, Two: without faith there is no being, Three: free will.

Too much is required to sacrifice to solve humanity's problems. It's awfully hard to give up luxuries. To fall below one's minimum comfort level.

Unwritten. Unnoticed. Unsung. Unheard. Welcome to data oblivion.

Friday, March 18, 2005

How do you become an optimist?

Ross asks: How does one become an optimist?

Set out to accomplish one good thing every day. At the end of each day, for the rest of your life, you think of something good that happened and/or something good you made happen.
It is incredibly hard work. The hardest part may be actually convincing yourself it's worth it.

crisis creates compromise - No one has forethought. A crisis must come first, before any action is taken.

I dream of greater wisdom, but what I really want is to experience life. I fight against myself constantly over experiencing life.

For some reason I have been thinking this phrase:
Remember the Shoa
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No idea what brought it to mind in the first place.

I have lost all sense:
of community
of love
of life
of happiness
of drive
of humor
of emotion
of honor
of time
I have lost all sense.

The resurrection of creativity leads to a gluttony of information, much of which is false.

I have been through everything and nothing at all. Welcome to my world.